Is it enough?

Is it enough? What anxiety this question can bring. Is it enough? Trying to prepare a Thanksgiving feast for 4 is do-able, even when it is up to 6, there is not much difference but when this simple celebration goes over 10 to 12. You think, lets just go out and not cook at all and then something gets you. How could you be so selfish, how could you not provide for these friends that God has so lovingly placed in your life and in your husband's life? How could you even think of denying them a place at your table?

My table is God's table and whoever he shall place there will be welcomed, cherished and loved. It will be enough. For soldiers needing to escape the small barracks room it will be the break their weary souls crave. For I am standing in for their parents, wives and children back home. My home is the comforting place they have been placed. It has become so clear why we have been blessed with a large home, it is large enough to welcome all of them.

It will be enough that is is Stove Top stuffing nowhere close to homemade and macaroni and cheese from a blue box will be enough to remind us of our childhood. It will be enough that God has entrusted to me and my husband the care of his people on this day, his day and we shall be giving him thanks. That is enough for him and it will be enough for me.

The journey

The journey to this day. Today has no significance, it is not an birthday, anniversary or remembering an event, it is just another day of my life. It is the day I moved furniture with my mother, shopped and went to Zumba class with Jillanne. I video chatted with Randy as I do most nights, it really held no special events, yet this day was planned. God knew I what I needed today, he knew how to make it pass so quickly. He knew what things I needed to accomplish, he even knew the shirt was going to fit before I tried it on. He knows how I crave exercise and despise it in the same breath, how my legs ache for action, and how I feel so creaky the next day. The things I share with no one he knows.

It's been a year.

And yes it has been a year, in every since of the saying. It has been an actual year since Randy left and I joined the ranks of military wives.

To reflect on the past 365 days I would say that my heart knows worry like it never has before, everytime I kiss him goodbye I don't know when the next time I'll see him will be. That can be a daunting goodbye!

It is strange to not cook for someone on a daily basis. I think my cooking might have gone downhill and it took me so long to get good, well not good but edible atleast!

So exactly how much have we been together in the past 365? Hmmm, let me add this up! Left on June 1, saw him for 2, 12 hour visits in August, 72 hours for Labor Day, another 72 hours for Thanksgiving, 12 days for Christmas, 72 hours in January and 10 days in April...for a grand total of 33 days! This is why living in Korea doesn't sound too bad right now!

Coutdown to our next time together...98 days give or take. Sometime after Labor Day!

last minute change of plans

It has been several months since I have written because the plans I had worked so hard to make have been totally destroyed. Two weeks before Randy's graduation his orders were changed back to South Korea, so that has complicated things dramatically.

Fast forward 3 months since then and Randy has been in Korea for 10 weeks and is mostly enjoying himself while I stayed here in Texas. At first we were just going to do the year long separation and try to visit each other 3 times, once every 3 months to break it up a little, then reality started to sink in...

The new plan is for me to stay in Texas through the summer to continue to work and then join Randy sometime in August or September. For right now, that's the plan. I leave next week to go visit and get a feel for the area, house hunt and look at the logistics of moving to Korea.

While I am excited to be seeing Randy after another 11 week separation, I know that there is a long list of things that need to be handled while I am there. Not living near a post is a huge deficit to me right now, all the information I can find is on the internet and I have to do everything by phone call instead of face to face, so it is not ideal.

Along with the 15 hour flight...